we're still not talking. i figure it will eventually become one of those things u just forget happened. although i won't ever really forget. words have power man. i just don't want my family thinking things are true when they are not. that i'm someone i'm not. he needs to know nothing happened, but i doubt he would believe me. but anyways, i'm ready for school to start...and once it starts i'll be ready for it to end (that's the way it usually is). i just want to focus on school and be able to give 100% but i also want money so i should get a job. but when i work i get tired and then my school work suffers. hmmm, what sould i do? i should just get a job and hope someone will rent an apartment or a couple rooms in their house to me and my friend. she needs to move out cuz she has a big family and a semi-crazy mom. i need to move out cuz living with my brother is emotionally draining to me. our relationship will be better once we're not under the same roof anymore. thats the way it usually is. i miss hanging out with him, drinking beers and watching the simpsons like we used to. whatever, i think its time i say F U to everyone who brings me down and just focus on my life and catering to my own needs, etc. so i guess this means i need to get a job *sigh* i'll go get an ap tomorrow for this job that i have a good shot at since i've done similar work before (and this place pays over a dollar more than my old job). ok i'm done...p.s. i still want that one guy but i haven't seen him for weeks and never gave him my phone number. argh, the frustration. dang my hair looks hot today...ok i'm done for real this time, goodbye.