sooo last night my roomate kissed me. more like made out with me. tried to convince me to hook up with him. i rejected him. too awkward. i adore that kid. i thought of him as such a gentleman and now i don't. he was with one of my best friends for 3 years, and hooked up with a couple of my other friends (i hooked him up with my friends cuz i felt bad for him after michelle dumped him). i absolutely hate when a guy friend tries to get with me, it ruins everything. i told him that we couldn't hook up and went to bed. i locked my door and cried (i had a few beers so i was emotional about the situation). everytime a guy friend of mine hits on me it ends badly. guys don't like rejection, and we will never feel comfortable around eachother again. i think that's why i cried, because i know that our friendship will never be the same again. he kept saying come on just once. or just this one time...something like that. and i'm not sure if i mentioned this yet, but i'm "talking" to this guy grant right now. i've known him for years and have always been comfortable telling him about all of my guy problems. so i texted him and told him what had happened. at first he said that i must have done something to make him think it would be ok to kiss me, but i told him everything and he apologized for insinuating that i brought it on myself. i told him that i like him and that if we became more than friends i would always be honest with him when things like this happened. grant has kind of had a crush on me for years and has always been telling me i deserve to be treated right by a nice guy like him, and things like that. i adore him. the more i talk to him the more i like him. i used to think he was kind of dorky and that's why my shallow ass never gave him a chance, but he's growing on me. i left work after an hour today, i wasn't feeling well and i was pissed off. see it's payday and my check was rather small...last week i took some vacation days but they didn't go through as vacation days because people at borders are retarded. so yeah i won't get that money until next payday. lame. its not that i absolutely need the money now...actually i don't know why i'm so pissed off about it. i could just do a paid out or whatever its called and get the money now, but its just typical borders to fuck shit up. ummmm, i think that's all i have to say right nowww.