filled out papers and sat at the new job for a couple hours tonight. an 11 hour day tomorrow, yay. for the next 2 weeks it's going to be the same. my first check is going to be so fat. we have to unload all of the books and what not. all that's in the store right now are shelves. i'll get my paycheck just in time to pay my credit card bill in full, and still have about 400 bucks to spend. i want to save my money and trade in my car for something newer and hotter...but i know me. my first check will go the first day i have off to shop. i LOVE to shop. i'm excited. i have missed money so much. and 33% off on books...NICE! i luv to read. what a dork. i'm really going to try to keep this job and not get bored of it. and when i'm 21 i'll be a bartender. still don't know if i should stop going to gay community college or not. i'm not the school type anymore. and as much as i like photography, it's more of a hobby than a career to me. for me, atleast. i developed some film today and there was a picture of me and K10 on it. i don't even remember taking it (we were way wasted that night). i think we look good together...and i hate that i think that. he's asked me for my # 3 times...and has called me 0 times. i still don't know if he's with his g/f still. all signs tell me that he's no good for me. i decided that it was just a crush and that i didn't really like him. weeks went by...then today i see that picture of us together. *sigh* i smiled. i wanted him. i don't know what this means. why do i have to like the guys that either seem like they're no good for me (like him), or too good for me. blah.