i miss my first love. or atleast that great feeling i always had while with him. ***. i miss ***. he made me feel great. i wonder if **** could make me feel that way. and if he does make me feel that way will he screw me over too. he seems nicer and more genuine than *** was. but then again i trusted *** and felt the same way about him at the beginning. i want **** to call me. just seeing him at random parties and such on the weekends just isn't enough anymore. i like him. want him. need him? thinking about *** makes me sad, my eyes start to tear up. even after so many years. almost 4 i think. but thinking about **** makes me eager for things to speed up. to get to the good stuff, and hopefully never get to the bad stuff.