abstaining from you i'm building resistance i know what to do i'm keeping my distance what we had was never real your love and care i can not feel these words i express don't dig deep enough they're a jumbled mess and my thoughts are still rough not sure if what i'm saying will make any sense to you but i'm sitting here praying that you'll get a clue this thing between us is nothing at all don't make a fuss don't even call it wasn't true and now we're done it must have been through before it even begun (i wrote that last week, 4-19-05...the abstinence thing only lasted about 3 weeks...but atleast it wasn't just a random hook up with someone i don't care about. blah)