thinking about YOU out having fun and not thinking about ME pisses me off to no end. when will I get what I want? blah. yeah i'm talking about K7 again. its like we go through these phases. we'll not hook up for like 3 loooong weeks, then all of the sudden we're hooking up every other day for a couple weeks. it will be plain old booty call have sex then leave...then days of sleeping over and watching movies all cute like. what the fuck does that mean?!?! is he confused? is he stupid? lol. is he is he is he. bleargh. i feel so dumb when i have feelings for someone. i feel like a raging idiot...not just an idiot, a raging idiot...that's way worse dude. i feel dumb and naive. well not so much naive, but dumb. i feel like shaking myself and yelling "get over it ******" but that would be weird...and wouldn't work. gah! i want him to want me! i need him to need me! or someone atleast. bah. fin.