i should start numbering the guys i talk about since i never say their names. anyways, the guy i made out with on my birthday, that ignored me last weekend, was ignoring me again a couple nights ago at a kickback. so when he walked by me i finally talked to him. i asked him why he's been ignoring me and he gave me the answer. he said he thought i would be mad at him for not calling, and that he didn't call because he now has a g/f. so needless to say after that i didn't tell him how i feel. that would be pointless at this moment. is it wrong of me to hope his g/f is ugly? lol. after he said that things were normal between us again. no more ignoring. that same night this other guy i had made out with before was giving me a lot of attention. he had to leave when his ride was leaving. i think thats a good thing cuz i wanted him just as much as he appeared to want me. then i was giving a friend of my brothers a ride home and he asked me to pull over then asked if i wanted to hook up. i said maybe some other time, lol. right now i just not down for casual hookups since that last guy made my personal business public. maybe its time for me to stray from the casual ways and have an actual relationship with someone? i'm not used to that kind of stuff though. plus its easier said than done. even if i did decide to have a relationship who would i find to have one with? i believe love isn't something u look for, it's something that finds you. well this weekend sure was eventful. hopefully i'll have as much to write about next weekend...afterall, i do have a kegger to go to. and that usually means drunken good times to write about.