ok so tuesday was a bad day for me. J15 made me super sad and doesn't want to talk to me anymore. i even cried! not that any of u know me but i don't cry often. especially not over guys and definately not while sober ha ha. so J15 thinks i'm a raging alcoholic...i'll post the conversation so u guys can read it for yourselves (who am i talking to, i'll get like 2 comments at most, ha ha). anyways, here it is. p.s. his first comment was in response to an im i sent him way earlier that day while he had an away message on..i asked what i did to make him ignore me or something like that... him [2:13 PM]: what you did was molest me infront of everyone at your apartment, which made me feel amazingly uncomfortable. me [2:13 PM]: i didn't even know i invited u me [2:13 PM]: i remember inviting clayton when i talked to him online earlier that day him [2:14 PM]: he called you and asked if we all could come over him [2:14 PM]: and you said okay me [2:14 PM]: knowing how i am when i'm drunk why would u bother him [2:14 PM]: how was i supposed to know you were drunk? him [2:14 PM]: oh thats right, your always drunk me [2:14 PM]: because i was having a kicback what did u expect me [2:15 PM]: no actually i'm not always drunk wtf him [2:15 PM]: anyway, i wont be coming over to you apartment again after that display him [2:15 PM]: have a good life trish me [2:16 PM]: u too me [2:18 PM]: if i thought one of my friends had a problem i wouldn't just ride them off like that but i guess that's just you. u have a good life too jeremy. him [2:18 PM]: i've in fact never seen you sobver him [2:18 PM]: sober* him [2:18 PM]: which is quite sad him [2:19 PM]: and i've told you, "you have a drinking problem" me [2:19 PM]: you've only seen me 3 times him [2:19 PM]: and you just give me the "but ii'm young and like to party!" me [2:19 PM]: actually no i told u i was going to try and drink less, but that night i drank vodka and don't know my limits with vodka me [2:20 PM]: i'm not trying to give excuses for anything i was just saying that i feel like u saying ur never going to come over and telling me to have a nice life because u don't want to ever see me again is fucked up him [2:20 PM]: because you were grabbing my crotch, licking my face and trying to rub up on me infront of everyone him [2:20 PM]: and i kept telling you to stop him [2:20 PM]: but you kept doing it anyway me [2:21 PM]: well i have no excuse for my actions obviously, i appoligize. me [2:21 PM]: not that that will help him [2:21 PM]: and i wasnt the only person you were doing that too me [2:22 PM]: well i'm sorry u never got to know the real me, i'm not as crazy as u think i am. me [2:23 PM]: and i don't usually do all that stuff u just said, not even while drunk him [2:23 PM]: you did the same stuff on new years him [2:23 PM]: you shouldnt drink around people him [2:23 PM]: ever him [2:24 PM]: no one can even understand a word your saying me [2:24 PM]: i shouldn't drink that much...not ever him [2:24 PM]: you shouldnt drink booze, EVER. me [2:24 PM]: i don't get like that when i'm just having a few beers with my roomates me [2:24 PM]: its when i drink that much him [2:25 PM]: might aswell cut out the source of the problem from the bottom him [2:25 PM]: not the middle me [2:25 PM]: and what would be the point in quitting be if the people who want me to quit would just stop being my friend anyways him [2:26 PM]: you know what, stop trying to justify it, your a sloppy ass drunk, and you shouldnt be drinking.. maybe if someone could video tape it and show you. him [2:26 PM]: YOU should be the one who wants YOU to quit. him [2:26 PM]: but you can't see yourself as drunk as you get him [2:26 PM]: so i'm telling you how bad it is me [2:29 PM]: well thanks for the concern but no one else is showing any so why would i feel the need to stop. no one cares what i'm doing to myself so why should i. him [2:29 PM]: forget it me [2:29 PM]: so that's pretty much it u don't ever want to talk to me again or what him [2:30 PM]: you got this, i dont fucking care attitude him [2:30 PM]: and i'm not into people like that. me [2:30 PM]: i'm only acting like that because i feel like you're telling me to fuck off me [2:31 PM]: i never have an attitude like that when we talk about anything else do i him [2:31 PM]: your alcoholism seems to run your life, i mean you drink like crazy even when you have to be up at 5am to go to work me [2:32 PM]: i drink on my nights off, since i've moved out i've only drank once on a work night him [2:32 PM]: tell you what, go ask some other people if they think your a sloppy drunk. me [2:33 PM]: no one would say i was him [2:33 PM]: how do you know if you havent asked them? me [2:33 PM]: i asked my friend evan cuz i was sad about u thinking i have a problem and he said i'm a fun drunk and he likes to hang out with me me [2:34 PM]: i dunno, maybe people just lie to me then because no one has ever said what u say to me him [2:34 PM]: well ask anyone else that was there that night me [2:34 PM]: he was there, him and all his friends left right before u got there him [2:35 PM]: all those bro's? me [2:35 PM]: yeah vanessa said they left just as u and clayton got there so that sucked. the second he was like have a nice life, i just started crying. i didn't go to class that day. went shopping then came home and ran thinking that would help...it didn't. i'm not as hurt right now, but i still think that if u think ur friend has a problem, help them! don't tell them u don't want to talk to them anymore. he blew it way out of proportion. whatever. i decided to kick back on the drinking anyways even though he's not my friend anymore...but it is the weekend so we'll see.