i'm itching to go out! i need a party. this past week of self control is killing me. i just want to go out and have a few beers. abstaining from sex is ok, but i never planned on abstaining from alcohol. so tonight the plan is to get drunk. we'll see how that goes though. UPDATE: K6 is coming over tonight. he asked me if i wanted to make out tonight. lol i luv how he doesn't beat around the bush. and hanging out with him is so much less stressful than with nice guy (C9). he knows i'm abstaining so that's one less thing to worry about. although he knows i've failed at that before. but whatever. i can control myself. i'd rather go out and party but i don't know of anything going on. so i'll just have him as my backup plan. if i do end up going out i'll just invite him to wherever i am. he won't come but atleast i won't look mean. and if i can't find something to do then i'll have him calling later so no worries. yay i have something to do tonight. blah ok i'm done. have a great night and a swell weekend everyone! UPDATE #2: i don't want to hang out with K6! i want to go to a party and kick it by the keg but nOoOoOoOo there aren't any parties! so i'll stay here and watch a gay movie, drink, and kiss a boy i have no feelings for. this sux...could be worse though. UPDATE #3: i just got home from walking around barnes and noble. i love book stores...too bad i have no money and can't actually buy any books. now i'm eating taco bell and waiting for K6 to call so i can lie to him and say that i'm not home so we can't kick it. good times!