i talked to my best friend online (she's away at sfsu) last night about my G22 situation. she told me not to hook up with him (cuz he's supposed to come over friday to bring me my cd). she said "you're better than that." and i know she's right, i need to not give in. i need to be honest with him and say outloud what i'm constantly thinking in my head. so if i can get the guts to i'm going to tell him that i can't hook up with him because i'm incapable of having casual sex with no feelings. that i don't want to get attached to him and have it amount to nothing again. that i don't want to be his filler, and that i won't continue to get with him whenever it doesn't work out with other girls. of course my shyness will probably get in the way and i'll end up hooking up with him *sigh*...ugh lets hope not.