i'm not emotional right now so all is well. maybe it was just pms cuz i started my period this morning...again! i just got off of it a week ago. why is my body always so fucked up. atleast that explains the need to devour that chocolate cake i ate. but wtf i hate being a girl sometimes! correction...most of the time. i watched this documentary called "supersize me" today. this guy ate nothing but mcdonalds for 30 days. insanity. good thing i already hated mcdonalds. i'm going to try and not eat fast food for as long as i can. it will be sooo hard to stay away from del taco though. and i refuse to cut beer out of my diet. i'm too young for that! i'm going to enjoy what's left of my youth. as it is i only have 84 days left until i'm not longer a teenager...and that scares me! i don't want to grow up. i wish i could be in elementary school my whole life. yeah well that won't happen so i'll make the best of what's left of my youth. so here's my horoscope for today: "The next few weeks will bring more social activity, although some of your fun may be tied to friends from work. You might enjoy all this excitement, but make sure that your playmates don't become such a distraction that you slip in the fulfillment of your commitments. Your mind is quite active now; use your increased mental agility to take care of business before you go off to play." i haven't started work yet but will in a couple weeks. one of my best friends i met at my last job...maybe through work i'll meet new people to kick it with. that would be nice seeing as i lost a few friends recently. i hope they don't have hot slutty boyfriends though, lol. i know that what i did was wrong in some ways but making light of a situation like i always do is the way i keep from being sad about it. so when i make jokes about other girls boyfriends and how they should watch out i don't mean it. but whatever. my horoscope for tomorrow: "You are in the process of developing your plans so that you have a better shot at achieving your goals. Perhaps you've been a bit distracted over the past couple of days, but now you are sinking into the realization that you must get down to the hard work, even if no one notices. This isn't about being seen. It's about feeling your way in to the next phase of activity." ok that one is weird. i recently decided i wouldn't be continuing with the college thing after this semester. stupid horoscope. does anyone know if u have to be 21 to go to bartenders school? i think i could be good at that. i drink a lot i'm sure i could make the drinks just as well as i can drink them. so if anyone knows anything about bartenders school please give me the info. hey wait i'm on the internet...why don't i just look it up myself, duh. ok anyways, have a swell night everyone.