don't know what i'm going to do tonight. i just did my hair and it looks hot...but i think i'll be fine with staying home if it comes down to that. i'm feeling really "chill" right now. i just want to kick back and relax. whether i kick back with other people or alone, i really don't care. of course it would be nice to have some human contact, but i'll live either way. i want K10 to break up with his g/f and he knows that...if we do hang out again and he's all over me like last time i'm going to make him stop (if he's still with his g/f that is). all i can really do is tell him how i feel and hope he feels the same. if he doesn't, then he's not the one for me. i may feel like everyone around me is getting married or atleast really serious, but i know that i am young. yeah i always thought i'd get married in my early 20's, but there's still time. i mean i'm only 19 (for about 95 more days atleast). things will fall into place eventually. i believe that everything happens for a reason. and i have no regrets, just learning experiences. i'm glad i'm not all depressed right now. no more pms, yay! i never got my chips...but i just had chocolate cake! yay me. hot hair and a hot mood...maybe i should go out. not like i have anyone to call up to see what's going on...but that's my own fault. everything gets better with time though so no worries. i still have my best friend that i've known since i was 7, and she's coming down from college on tuesday! so i'll have her to kick it with for about a week. god i miss her so much. i wish i could be little again. elementary school was the best with field trips, awesome cafeteria food, heads up 7 up, etc. and there wasn't so much drama back then. no worrying about getting a bad reputation. no having to take birth control everyday. no shit talking girls that have nothing better to do. yes, life was good back then. *sigh* it could be good now too. i'll work on that. i like being happy. well who doesn't? never seems to last that long though...but i try to live in the moment (which usually gets me in trouble). eh, someday i'll learn to think before i act, speak, etc. well i think i've rambled on enough for now so i'll write more later when i have something new to say. have a swell weekend everyone.