so i've been drinking. captain morgan...yay rum. i like boys. and i've had a thing for T.F since the beginning of highschool...that was about 3 6 years ago. damn, i've never actually realized how long i've "longed" for him. he used to make fun of me my freshman year (our freshman year). his sister told me he had a crush on me. he got all buff and hot since then. i liked him when he was chubby and not as hot )to other people). he was always something special to me. one of few guys that still wait to make sure u get into your house ok. a lot of guys would drop me off and drive AWay, while he would ALWAYS drop me off and WAIT for me to get safely inside of my house. we've never hooked up...or even shared a kiss of any kind. i think he is the most genuine person i have EVER met in my ENTIRE life. he has been training to be a fire fighter. i haven't seen him in an entire year (almost). i still talk to him on the phone (like i did tonight) though. but i miss him more than u can even imagine. honestly...i've never met a more perfect human being. nicest, funiest, etc. etc. i adore him. i can go forever with not talking to him or seeing him and i still consider him to be one of my closest friends. he's the guy that introduced me to partying...and the BUDICE TALL CAN. yeayah! i'm not sad to not be with him, but i would be sad if i couldn't be his friend. like i said, i ADORE him. i love him. i hung out at his house every weekend during highschool. he has since moved, and things have changed. but i still adore him. i forget the point of this entry. ummm. ok i'll be back when i remember.