so it's thursday...tomorrow's friday. actually it will be friday in about 40 minutes. so yay. my friend still better be having a party. i told J8 to call me this weekend...i can't help but sit here and wonder if he's actually going to call. i didn't expect him to call last time he did, so maybe he'll surprise me again. we'll see. sidenote *my hair looks hot right now despite the thick dark roots...but i rock these roots damn it!* so anyways, J8. yes. i want him. i won't get to 'have him' this weekend though. eh well, i can still make out with the boy. that used to be enough. like i've said before, i don't usually let guys get too close to me, but i can see me letting J8 get close. if he wants to that is. we'll see. ahhhh, this weekend. i would like it to change things in my life...but how often do things go the way i want them to? not often. it's my turn to get what i want damn it! lol. the show i want a famous face is on...i could never get plastic surgery to look like someone else. don't people want their own identity? i do. i luv myself. i ran for an hour today, i feel so accomplished...now if only i could get a job, lol. baby steps. dang, this girl on the show is sooo hot, yet she's going to get surgery. crazy insecure girls. i understand when girls get breast implants (i couldn't imagine being flat chested...thank the lord for my D cups), but to change your entire face and all of your features seems crazy. whatever, to each his own. oh yeah back to J8. i want him, not much more to say. if he doesn't call me this weekend (or if i don't see him) be ready for some crazy entries about how i hate men and i'm lonely, etc. drunken weekend entries coming soon. have a swell weekend everyone.