hooray for sleeping over at cute boys houses. damn K7...i've tried so many times to ignore him and get over him. no dice man. no dice. so he texts me wanting me to come over but i tell him i'm tired. he's really persistant. i promised i'd come over some other night but that wasn't good enough for him. he sent me literally 8 text messages before i gave in. i told him i was too tired and didn't want to have to drive home and stuff, so he said i could stay the night and that he'd wake me up when he got up for work. so i grabbed a bottle of md 20/20 started drinking, got dressed and went over there. god he's so cute. he wasn't drunk for once which was weird. we watched t.v. for a long time and talked a lot. i've never conversed with him that much...it was a nice change. he eventually kissed me and of course we had hot sex. i swear it gets better and better everytime. maybe i just think its better each time because each time i start to like him more? i don't know. but either way it was great. then we went to sleep. his mom came in in the morning to wake him up for work...she didn't say anything about me being there...but she'll probably yell at him later, lol. he goes to my gym now! this sux...i don't want him to see me there all sweaty and gross like. well he's seen me sweat before but thats different, lol. i work hard at the gym so i look gross, lol. boo. oh well he said he goes at night i think, so i'll stick to my afternoons. i felt kind of akward in the morning. i grabbed my stuff and stood up then he got up to walk me out. neither of us said anything until we hugged goodbye. i said "later" he said "i'll see you later." aren't we the talkative bunch. i keep telling myself i don't like him...but my friends say that i'm lying to myself...they're probably right. i mean i don't want to sleep with anyone else, and i look forward to his text messages...so i like him, right? i go back to work today after my 6 days off (birthday week celebration). it's going to suck. they cut a lot of hours. i need money like no joke. school is expensive, and my credit card bills are atrocious. speaking of school, i usually average like 4 to 6 units a semester...but this semester i'm taking 13 units. i'm so not going to be able to hack it. i've decided to major in sociology...but i change my mind a lot so we'll see. K7! gah, i can't stop thinking about him! he's been working a lot lately so i don't know how often i'll be able to see him. blah. this entry has become too long so i'll end it now. have a swell day everyone. UPDATE: i will NOT like him! i will NOT like him! i will NOT like him! i will NOT like him! i will NOT like him! i will NOT like him! i will NOT like him! UPDATE #2: does he want me for more than just sex? fah! this is so hard...so hard to not care like i've done in the past. advice please, how do i know if he wants more than just the physical?