woke up next to him again this morning...this time unplanned. i was like where the fuck am i and whose arm is around me? i thought it was my friend ashley. i've woken up next to her before without planning to. but i looked and it was K7. i remember picking him up at our old highschool (not sure why), and then talking to my friend steve one the phone and he was making those gestures with his hand (the you talk too much gestures)...yeah he was so totally jealous of me sitting there talking to another guy while driving him home (well atleast i hope that was the case). that plus the fact that we were both pretty wasted. oh and did i mention that K10 was at the party i was at last night. we talked...he broke my heart...again. said he had a g/f again, but that this time he couldn't cheat on her (like he did to his last girl with me). i'm like yay ur in luv, vomit. he has my old cell phone that i lost there though! and now that i have his new cell # i can pick it up soon...like as soon as i get the courage to call the guy i've liked for the past year knowing he has a g/f that he luvs (and never gave me a chance). blah. whatever, back to K7...so unplanned waking up next to him again. i remember telling him last night that he performed better the night before...lmao. gotta luv me and my brutal honesty. he was like whatever u came...i was all no i didn't...so just like that one kids saying (if at first u don't succeed, try try again), he tried again. lol i was so drunk who knows if it was actually up to my standards...but it was fun telling him he sucked and to do better (of course in nicer words). he of course didn't suck, but yeah...that's me for ya. so once again i shall try and figure out if he actually likes me...and will fail miserably. he got jealous and wanted me to get off the phone with my guy friend...but its not like we hang out with large groups of people (just eachother and for sexual purposes). i toyed with the idea that maybe he's embarrassed of me...but then i realized that i'm hot and he would have to be out of his mind for that to be true. i want him right now...not only do i think that i like him, but i think that i'm addicted to his sex as well. so either way i'm so screwed dude. p.s. my brothers kid was born yesterday while i was at work (i haven't gotten to see it in person yet)...but from what i hear it's freakishly large...9 pounds 7 ounces and 21 inches long. had to be suctioned out...hope it doesn't get a cone head. ok i have to pee so goodnight people.