drank last night with a friend. i used to have a crush on this guy, but not anymore. lately i have been getting a vibe from him or something. just a feeling that he likes me or something. i was sitting in the big comfy chair and he sat with me and was like rubbing my leg with one hand and my arm with the other. it was really weird. i just pretended not tonotice. i could just believe its cuz he was drunk, and drunk people are often friendly (cuz i am too), but i just don't think so. just little things make me feel weird about him. like if i say i'm gorgeous (jokingly) i'll see him out of the corner of my eye shaking his head yes and smiling. he was also touching my feet...talk about weird. he's cute and i wouldn't mind getting with him if he wasn't such a good friend. i don't want to ruin the friendship. oh and when he left i walked him to the door and gave him a hug like usual. but i was afraid he might try to kiss me so i had my head turned...guess he noticed. he later was like u gave me a really weird hug last night. i said i hadn't noticed. he said he would show me what he means later (like hug me the way i hugged him)...another opportunity for him to be close to me? cuz yeah showing rather than simply explaining seems rather unneccessary. on another note this hot guy i went to school with asked me for my number and we're going to kick it and drink soon. he's super hot. now he can get close to me alll he wants. and thats cuz we don't have a friendship established...i just feel like once you're friends with someone it wouldn't be wise to jeopradize that friendship. like if it doesn't work out someone's bound to be bitter. so yeah. i'm flattered but this kind of sux. nice to get some much needed affection though. but i don't want to give anyone false hope. maybe i'm just not the relationship type and this all freaks me out a bit. why does everyone want me?!?! lol, j/k. not that conceited. SOMEONE GIVE ME ADVICE ON WHAT TO DO WHEN A FRIEND LIKES YOU AND YOU DON'T WANT TO RUIN THE FRIENDSHIP. p.s. i have great hair!