SLUT. god i hate that word. and it really sux to be called it by the one person whose opinion u value most. why does he hate me so much? he knows damn well that i'm not a slut, he's just trying to hurt me and as always it's fuckin' working. the only thing i thought to do was leave, but i soon realized i had nowhere to go. i drove around riverside for over an hour realizing that i have no friends that i know well enough to just go cry to them and stay at their house. the only friend i had that i was close enough to left for college today. i feel so alone i wish i could just leave for a few days, but i have nowhere to go. i hate living with him when he's like this. (i wrote that last night, i'm a little better right now...although i still hate this shit.)