my horoscope for today... "You Lions are being tested now, and your response will have important ramifications over the days ahead. Consider the difficult circumstances you face. If you are trying to move ahead too fast, you may be required to slow down. Make whatever adjustments are needed. Take your cues from what reality is showing you now. Your current situations have become your real teachers." my horoscope for tomorrow... "You Leos may spend too much time now seeking a comfortable middle ground, but it is an elusive goal. The difficulty comes from getting yourself so worked up, for you feel that there are urgent emotional issues at stake. It's hard to give up control, but you may be required to take a leap of faith. Let others know your concerns; you may be pleasantly surprised at their willingness to work with you." ok in response to tomorrows horoscope i have this to say: i do want a middle ground...i middle ground between my casual ways, and a relationship. is that so much to ask? lol, apparantly so. there are ALWAYS emotional issues at stake. not just with the current things in my life but all things i come across. i'm a girl, being emotional is what we do. and should i let C9 know my concerns? tell him that i don't want to have casual sex? what would i be hoping for? him to say that he doesn't see it as casual? and would he say that? i don't want to force him into anything. i haven't seen him in almost a week...either way i doubt i've blown it already. but still...do i have the guts to tell him? it would be so much easier to not have sex by just ignoring all guys. not going out, and not answering my phone when any guy calls. so much easier to practice self control from inside my own house. i'm afraid to test myself by sticking me back into my own party environment that i love so much. i'll have to do it eventually. but what should i tell C9? should i even bother calling him? what if he thinks i don't want to have sex anymore because he was bad at it or something?lol. i doubt he'll think that though. dang i need advice. what would u guys do in my situation? call him? not call him? stay home more? go out and try to practice self control while still having fun? give in and just enjoy my casual youth? only have sex with C9 and no one else? see if he'll still want to see me even though i don't want to have sex anymore?