i'm really depressed right now. i just feel so down. school is going good, but that seems to be the only thing going good right now. i just went to check my schedule for next week, and i only work one day! i have school 3 days a week, which means i can work 4 days a week...but nope, i'm only scheduled for one day. that's fuckin' bullshit. i was getting less stressed out by money when suddenly i get another ticket and now crappy days at work. if i had money to do something on my days off i wouldn't be so pissed, but i am. i really should cancel my gym membership. i'm so f'n broke right now. this sucks. not to mention how incredibly lonely i am. i miss my best friend, and at this rate i won't have the money to go visit her at college like i had planned to. if she were here i'd be at her house right now instead of sitting here feeling sorry for myself. atleast my hair looks hot (i got it done today). but even that isn't cheering me up like it usually does. i really wish i could meet a decent guy that's interested in me for more than just sex. someone that likes me for me. someone i don't have to be drunk around to feel comfortable with. i need to get out of riverside. ugh, this sucks so bad. i'm not sad to the point of crying or anything, i'm just really tired of this life i'm living. i need some genuine happiness in my life right now.