i called in sick to work today. i needed the day off man. i went shopping instead. bought some oneil board shorts. they're blank and pink and match my swim halter top thingy. sort of. i want that guy to call me sooo bad but i didn't give him my number so he prolly thinks i'm not interested. but i mean i went home with him and kicked it there for awhile so he should know i like him. damn he was so super nice. uysaygiewhgi. my guy friend that has a crush on me is making me feel bad. he keeps flirting and i'm just like "oh my" cuz i don't know how else to respond to the things he says to me. and he got mad last night and was like ur hard to understand yadda yadda. he wants me to be straight forward with him but i don't want to hurt his feelings. i thought i was going to give us a try...but then i met that 4th of july boy and now i'm all about him. i need an older more mature guy anyways. my guy friend is 17, about to turn 18, but the 4th of july guy is 20 about to turn 21. plus the 20 year old doesn't get all drunk and crazy like me and my guy friend do. my 4th of july guy seems like the type that will take care of me and look out for me when i'm drunk. bah i hope i'm not setting myself up for dissapointment. like he could have been acting all nice to get some, but he seemed very genuine. so we'll see. ok i'm done...for now. oh and the new pic is of my new bathingsuit top (or um, my boobs). poloroids don't come out too well but its light pink with white polkadots...oh so cute! yeahi'm going to take it down in awhile though.