that says it all doesnt it? be a walking example of god be a shining example of gods love insert capital G at anytime because im far too lazy my skills are compromised and maybe i need to look up the definition of that word again its friday and around here that doesnt mean much not anymore not like it used to be and never what it couldve been like or someway like that and around here time is a whole new concept hard to remember easy to forget the days of the week at times feel like two and all of the sudden you have 6 months sober all of the sudden i can no longer drowned my fears of death in the bottle in any bottle and i havent done it again yet relapsed and if all plays out the way god plans than i hope i wont i know better then to hold hands during devotions so i suppose that shall end and during sunday night chapel because there is risk in this cocky behavior god dont like pride god dont like ugly maybe i should be wary of him anyway whats love actually means these days