Not very entertaining. I did get what I needed though. Than again I usually do. I'm not sure of what else to do tonight. Maybe sit and read. Or listen to music and roll a joint. It doesn't matter. Either way I'll be wasting time. I held my cousin's daughter today. I've known her since birth. We were apart for awhile. I don't think she remembers me. Not really. Although she does smile. Like we share some secret. Or like she knows something I don't know anymore. I think after we are born. Once we begin to talk. And watch television. I think that we forget all of the most valuable information in the world. We forget about what life means. We begin to search for the answers we used to have. There's an anit-war rally. I don't think it will work. Bush doesn't agree with affirmative action. I honestly don't either. Everyone's mad. I'm not. You should get recognized for your skills and intelligence, not your skin color. I understand I sound racist. I'm not. I hate everyone equally. Some group is always protesting. It gets old. I say stop whining and suck it up. The world sucks, so what. Let it alone and enjoy the ride all the way to hell. It's long and bumpy. Remember to bring a rain coat and some crackers. We may be here for awhile. My journal entries are always long, but I can't help it. I like to ramble to no one. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i lay awake at night dreaming of sleep dreaming of life the way it was the way it is all these thoughts flood my mind over flowing intelligence overly creative soul i won't win this time but i will win the next i know i've always known there is a time to lose and a time to gain existence is vital survival is strained i won't win this time but i will win the next ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chaos is beauty and my thoughts are never clear. Goodnight to most. Good morning to others.