I've managed to get myself another head cold. I've been ill for the past few days. Coughing. Dripping. Stomach cramps. Oh well. Today is a gloomy day. We have 5 days of rain and 2 days of real summer weather. Mother Nature is a beast. I haven't heard from anyone as of late. Don't really care. Don't really want to care. It's all the same indeed. I need to start getting more active. This eating healthy thing will go down the drain if I don't focus. I want to be healthy. I'm trying. It's hard. Anyways, sleeping is almost a ghost to me. Every time I actually get to the sleeping stage something jars me awake. Night terrors or something. I picture small, nasty elves coming out of the shadows. Illusions of my mind. Insanity I'm sure. I need to get physical. Walk or something. Ride a bike. Anything. It's been almost a full day since I've had a drink. It's itching me though. The tingle in my stomach. In my mind. That need to get lit. Relaxed. It's egging me on. Begging almost. But I won't. I can't. I need to let my addictions go for awhile. Especially drinking. For a little while for now. Not much more else to say. This is enough for now I believe. Done for now.