Awake since 6. Fell asleep at 3. Nothing to do this early. Made hamburgers. Ate half of one. Not really hungry. Not really in the mood to chew. Cucumbers are good. Feeling pretty hyper. Sounding pretty down. Not to perky. Not to peppy. Never will be. Fine. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ shadows dance across the wall i sit here waiting for your call so late to wait the moon shines bright on this quiet empty night the rain falls against the window creating more noise than it will ever know banging thunder up above pleading for me, pleading for love ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Maybe write more later. Once fully awake. Went downtown. Visited cousin and baby. Bought some cronic. Blazed up. Coughed. Ate Pizza Hut. Dude ate like 10 pieces of pizza. Didn't puke once. Made me sick. Baby's cute. Cousin's alive. Nothing changes with these people. Fines. Drugs. Pitbulls. Bad neighborhoods. Unpaid bills. Fights. Cuss words, constantly. No Diplomas. No future. That's how it seems anyways. Why waste your life not doing anything to better yourself. Sure, maybe college ain't for everyone, but damn at least try, don't give up before you even get there. Hope baby has better chance. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ angel wings surround you they allow nothing through no harm will ever meet you they always remain true protectors of the weak shelters for the meek. remember to always give praise to those creatures who watched over your days ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Some day things will be different I suppose. No day soon. Some day is actually no day at all.