and i dont want any. thank you. another runofthemill day at work. another nostorytotell day at work. another freaking day. not so bad i guess. not really so bad. there are a number of reasons why today was an okay day. and a number of reasons why i need to really get out of there. its growing old and im growing more bitter right along with it. so. its time to go. give it a new get at it. get up and get out. and get it all done with. he never writes me. nor calls. and by now youd think i knew. id accept that he doesnt care the way i really want him too. and i dont even know why i want him too. but im not aimee and if i was aimee things would be differently. i knew he wouldnt make it this far. he doesnt seem the type to actually have an adventure. too busy living in other peoples adventures. and petty lives. i dont hate him because of it. im just sad a bit because of it. but its nothing time wont heal. and time wont heal. and ill be fine and deal. d has left me alone. it feels fine. like it did before he began and im comfortable. like i always am. and i really wasnt trying to be mean but i needed to be honest. and i wonder if people at work do find me annoying. there has to be some people who find me annoying. i mean everyone annoys someone right. so now i sit here waiting for the night time to pass so i can plot and scheme on how to get out of a few hours of work on saturday. and ill figure something out. i always do. maybe ill give sal a call. i dont know what to talk to him about. im just not good on the phone. not good at all.