i don't want to hear about your sadness. those things. useless. useless. things. i've had my own dreams. and now time is ticking by so slow. not moving at all. and i'm stuck here. watching. listening. waiting. hating. o damn you. and your pettiness. and your eagerness. and your ness. my arm hurts. my eyes are sore. i'm tired. and my life is such a bore. she lays there. night after night. dying. and i can't do a thing. not a damned thing. i'm so tired. of it. watching. waiting. anticipating the worst. this curse. has fallen. and my heart is broken. from within and out. i can no longer shout. i despise you for it all. and loathe. and ache. and cry on your shoulder. all i want is a bottle of vodka and a way out. dfn.