its like a race no one wants to win. i want to make out with him. but. i know better. these things fade very quickly. and. pass unnoticed just so. just rightly so. crime does not pay. pay not does crime. i want a cause. i want something to fight for. i want something to dislike. something to ruin. destroy for no reason at all. im in the mood. for mayhem. im more in the mood for him. but. i know better. because. knowing better is just me. its there. that knowledge that once it happens. itll ruin it all. for no reason. and. i like to ramble early in the morning after having had a million and a half cups of coffee. just because. just because. everything seems lighter in a booth at dennys. discussing random bullshit. o. if only i didnt know better. if only it were easier for me. if only. something. and something. ill miss him when he leaves.