So how do I know it's all going to be okay after today? I don't. I don't know anymore right now than I knew yesterday or the day before. I don't know anything. Well I do know a few painful things. 1. I am officially going to be out of weed. 2. I am officially broke. 3. I am still unemployed. 4. I am still feeling angry. 5. I am in debt up to my ears. So it's good to know not all things change or even attempt to change. M and I had some sort of weird discussion today. I'm not sure whether or not anythings settled. She's sad. And she blames herself. Blames herself for how I am. It's all my fault. I know this. I accept it all. I don't know. Okay. I just don't know. I still want to leave so bad it aches. Aches and aches and aches. I don't know. Done for now.