"There are no days like today, because each minute is different than before." I don't want anything anymore. I don't want Pat. I don't want money. I don't want happiness. I don't want a loving family. I don't want friends. I don't want weed. I don't want drink. I don't want anything from anyone. M is pissing me off. She acts like a bitch most of the time. I'm getting extremely sick of her. I'm getting extremely sick of everything around here lately. Damn. How I would love to leave. To get in the Honda and just go. Take what little, little money I have and just take off for good. I wouldn't have to worry about any of this shit around here. I would finally be doing what I've wanted to do for so long. *wishes hard* It'll never happen. I'll probably grow old and die in this shit hole of a town. I'll probably end up living with M until I'm 40 years old and hag-ish. I just hate my life right now. Hate it. Hate it. Hate it. Hate it. Hate it. Nothing ever works out for me. (Feel the self pity) But it's true. Things I want so bad, I don't get them. Things I don't want, get nothing but them. I just feel like venting. Venting about all this stupid shit in my life. I seriously hate school. I seriously dislike M. I seriously feel like a complete failure at life. And I seriously just want out. OUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUT Someday, maybe I'll find what it is I'm missing. Lacking. Mourning for. Someday. "I just don't know." D.F.N.