i want a tangible love. i want something good. i want to be loved. but at the same time i want nothing at all. the blues are hitting hard again. and i dont like being miserable anymore. before i loved it. i swam in it. misery. was my favorite company. but now these days. im in vegas. im in a new place. doing new things. sorta. but here it is. the blues. the down in the gutter blues. dragging down my body. and mind. and what not. i dont even know what caused it. i need to cheer up. and i wish i didnt miss him so bad. because he doesnt miss me at all. fine. im done. caring.