*Sigh* I feel sort of weird right now. I was given an assignment to do a profile on someone. The first person who came to my mind was my older cousin EK. I don't know why. Maybe it's because deep down inside, even though I resented him sometimes, he's still always been my idol. My unaware role model. He's a good guy with a good heart. Last night I sent him some questions in an e mail. He sent them back a few minutes ago. He didn't have to, but he did. We haven't really spoke in so many years. I've almost forgotten what he looks like. He was such a large part of my life when I was younger. I loved him. As I grew older, he wasn't there as much. We drifted apart, as we all do at some time. I resented him because he wasn't there. Because I felt that he didn't care. (I'm crying now, I don't know why.) The times that I've needed help from EK, he's always come through. Somehow, someway. I feel guilty for not telling him or anyone how much I care about them. How much I need them. I know I'm a loner. Lonely at heart. But every now and then I need someone. Someone close to me. He just didn't have to do it, but he did because I asked. (Excuse me while I feel a little emotional right now). I hope it's not too late. I owe him. I owe him for just being him. I need to go, I can't stop crying. D.F.N.