"The end is near, when the clock strikes midnight it will all be gone." There is no room for depression today. My count down is officially over. I will be a little older and wiser today. I am highly unsure of how things are going to go today and tonight. I predict boredom. Or maybe even anger. All I crave is a smoke, a Smirnoff Triple Black, and a nice comfy chair to sit in. I shall have these things today. I wish Dani was comming along. I like her so much more than Wen. It takes very skilled patience not to beat the hell out of Wen every time she opens her ignorant mouth. Why do I feel so angry towards her? I have no idea. Maybe it's because she has something that I wished I had. What it is I have no idea. Come to think of it I think that previous theory was completely exaggerated. Moving on. I haven't done much in the past few days, but get smokey and spend time with people I can't trust. Aww. It's good to be back with the old times again. (sense sarcasm). I don't know. It would be nice if I had more people to spend this day with or any day with. But all I have now is a few fuck ups, one perky person, and well strangers. I think I have the best of luck with the strangers. So what am I getting at? I have no idea. I felt like rambling today. I felt like pretending I had some revelation last night. And now it all makes sense. I felt like playing a game with myself to see how long I could type without losing my mind. I felt like going insane. So here I am. Feeling and felting. I just hope the ebst for today. I have a feeling my plans are not going to turn out the way I expected. Of course I never really expect anything to work out for me. I am still debating on whether or not I want to go anywhere. Dani won't be there. Drinks will. Smoke-age will. Not much else. I'll sit and feel uncomfortable with a few people I don't even know or care to see again. Oh I always sound so happy, I swear. Well I need to do laundry, because I have finally run out of clean clothes to wear. And I need to bathe, it's been a day or two. Done for now. May I survive.