"Sleep is but a dream." I'm still awake. cold. tired. coughy. achy. I want to sleep. indeed. I can't though. toss and turn and toss. My leg keeps going oddly NUMB. In a weird sort of creepy and horrible way. I don't know why. but i don't have a good feeling about this. I've decided to blame the TYE-lenol. Ridiculous. being this tired. this sick. And still getting no rest. Such a burden this break has become. I can hardly wait to go back to classes now. I feel like cutting off my leg. hoping for the best. I need one of those HOME cure cook books. SEB and I well talked. about nothing important today. i'll have to call her back tomorrow. When I'm in higher spirits. Right now I feel like shit. and more shit. Christmas came and went so fast. So quickly. Unbelievable. Un-real. I don't feel like having anything on my mind. At all. I don't feel like thinking. Reliving memories. capturing the past. I'm sick of thriving on guilt and regret. I've made mistakes like anyone else. I don't care anymore. I just wish my leg would react normal again. JUst be a normal lazy leg. Instead of making me feel weird on my right side. I think I'll go and play some online poker now. "Do you hear what I hear?" DFN.