i want a new kind of drug. a powerful. up the nose to the brain to the electrodes. drug. i want back the cocaine days. and the shit ass job that barely pays. i want irresponsibilities. i want insanity. uncontrollability. snorting over the counter pain pills. called off work for no reason at all. the need to get high. or drunk. no fucking money. no i.d. nothing. i need a new way of being.