going the distance. i spent time with hollywood and robin today and it was good. seeing him again. i miss that kid more than i like to admit. i miss living with him. maybe some time we/ll repeat the experience. ----------------------------- drinking again. and i need to never ever ever ever give in again. and its so hard. to not say yes. saying no doesnt seem to be an option most of the time. i need to leave jason alone. for good. and for our good. i will. im venting and rambling because i dont want to realize or acknowledge how disappointed i am in myself. again. i dont feel like typing this out right now.