[feeling: lazy] [wanting: graduation more] I am skipping my classes today. yes, i am. It's cold. well kind of cold. I feel bad for skipping so early in the semester. But after this I do have 2 more. It sucks that our school has such an attendance policy. it's for the students welfare i guess. If we didn't have one. i'd probably never go. I just don't feel like making that long drive today. 13 miles. 26 miles round trip. I'll focus after this. than again, i always say that. I don't feel like learning right now. lately. I feel like staying home. sitting around. Sad, I know. I'm just not happy with this semester. Maybe it's because I have to do this one on my own. Alone. No one to keep me busy and occupied. Except the professors and their lessons. Bothersome. At least now I have a 4 day weekend. instead of just 3 days. Maybe next week I'll be more inspired. Probably not. but there's always a chance. I could've went to class. I should've. I always feel guilty for some reason. When feeling guilty is ridiculous. Because I could've always went. so why regret choices? I think I'll go watch the smut shows with M. "There was a time when I enjoyed such things." DFN.