in a week ill be a mother. officially. how things change. how time changes situations.

events disappear and are replaced before you even remember why you were sad in the beginning.

i type while im at work right now.

seven days. hours. minutes. moments. screams. and pulling out of hair and i will be a mother. to a daughter. i never thought. dreamed i would ever have.

because.

the life before this new other life. was a terrible life. a down life. dirty life. lonely. and hopeless.

excuse me if i type so EMO.

im excited.

terrified.

but.

excited.

i believe she'll have eyes like mine. and a smile all of the same. im sure i know her already.

we've been growing together for months now.

when you're ready riot.

ill be here waiting.