i realized too late, that i may not graduate. the source of my worry? i forgot to list a back up class in case, just in case i fail one of these four i need to graduate. i'm an ass. an asshole. through and through. now i'm worried. and panicked. i need to now re-focus. and plan my approach. things are getting complicated. i can feel it. my stomach's nervous right now. i need to pass all of these classes now. there is no give and get. i have no choice but to focus. and work hard. harder. this depresses me. i don't like working. this semester is supposed to be my last. and now it might not be. i don't like this cloud i've been living in. this blurr. i've messed up and now i may suffer the consqences. i don't like that either. so what i need to do now. is concentrate on school. for once. i can't let this semester slip by with the same procrastination i have let the others. i must work it out. and work it well. i have a feeling that bullshitting won't get me anywhere in any of these classes. i also need to speak to mr. lip my advisor. all this i should've done in the beginning. now it may be too late. i'm sad. more worried. nervous. damn me. and damn this life. dfn.