I woke up late. Well I just woke up late. I usually get up rather early. I feel like shit. I think I have some uncurable cold. I think today I will spend my time going tanning, shoppnig with my mother, and not thinking about anyone else but me. I am a little disappointed that K didn't call me, but I can't be all that sad about it. Him and SEB are doing this whole song and dance. I simply just want a friend. Maybe another cool person to spend time with. This is an absurd dream. Ridiculous so I will no longer place my hopes or anything on that stuff. Simply go with the flow. Let it all happen. I feel like hell. Hell must feel like me. I think I am going to give SEB and K their space. I surely don't need to be prying in the middle of the whole thing. Besides I don't want to make the mistake I did last time and repeat what K said to SEB. I don't like that she said this and she said that crap. No one likes gossip. I sure as hell don't like spreading gossip, but I should've known she would do that. I don't like SEB so much right now. Part of it may be jealousy. And most of it may be the fact that she's a little annoying. I think I will give them all space. I shall deal with my own kind for awhile. Places I am alway welcome. No drama. Only drink. No whining. Only weed. Yes, I am changing and it feels good. I can feel it deep down inside. I shall be fine. I am done for now.