how it feels to lose someone. how it feels to lose someone. how it feels to lose someone. how it feels to lose someone. it fucking kills. it fucking kills. it fucking kills. it fucking kills. what words can i use now. what words can i possibly use now. what mediocre words can i use now. what meaningless words can i use now. nothing. none. there are none. to capture this burning anger in my breaking heart. this horrible sense of reality. this pulsating rage of complete despair. don't you see. i'm dying with her. don't you see. she's leaving me. don't you see. i'm breaking. apart. everything is redone and fucked. and i'm slowly winding down. lost. and alone. finally all alone. lonely at heart. lonely now for good. she knows. she knows. she knows. death comes too soon. she knows. he's here. stalking her every move. pushing her into an endless sleep. DAMN YOU. DAMN YOU. DAMN IT ALL TO HELL. o if i could turn this pain into fire. i'd burn down hell. heaven would fall in ashes. as well. if i could turn this anger into ice. i'd freeze the world. pause this moment. and never let her go. everything is my enemy. everything is my burden. everything is hurting me. everything will be gone. i no longer know what to do. nor what to say. i don't want to be here. another lonely day. dfn.