It's not worth having a social life. I get bored once I have plenty to do. I just want to be alone the more people want to be with me. I should stay in and study this weekend. I should and I probably will. I don't want too, but I should at least put some effort into this semester. I shouldn't fail straight out. I spoke momentarily to K today. Nothing thrilling. Nothing interesting. I won't call him again. There's no point. I spoke to P today too. He made me smile and made me happy. I am trying to give him up. I get addicted to people like I'm already addicted to smoking. It's bothersome. I did enjoy his company in class though. No bitterness. No anger. Acceptance of my lonely fate. SEB wants to go out tomorrow night. I'd hate to let her down, but I need to focus on my own shit. Dani was supposed to call, but she never did. She'll probably be upset the next time I talk to her. I want summer to be here so bad I can taste it. I need it. Not much else is going on right now. I am trying not to concentrate to hard on my already suffering life. My time will come I'm sure. It's the waiting that bothers me now. I am done.