i just dont know. what you want from me. what it is i just cannot see. or hear. and. id like to scream. because. my heart does get so very lonely. wanting. needing. all of the fucking time. something i do not deserve. if you could just step inside for awhile. to feel this gnawing pain mile after fucking mile. but it doesnt matter. im numb. from brain to toe to thumb. im nothing. but numb.