Back. So I guess Keith sucks too than. No talking, no e mail, no anything. Yes, well it was nice while it lasted. I am beginning to dislike the male population. Why can't they all just be honest, cool, collected, and not retarded. Well o well. Nothing to dwell on. He has a girlfriend anyways. Plus, if he could choose he'd choose Sarah. Well that's it I think from now on I'll just avoid that little corner from now on. I don't like being dissed. I don't like it at all. I'm not even really angry about that. In all reality it doesn't even really matter to me. I just need something else to feel angry about. John is getting worse. My mother hasn't slept. I feel horribly guilty. Nothing seems to ever work out for me. No matter how hard I try..nothing works. I don't know whether I should give up or not. Great, I need to let this go. I need to stop being so damned sensitive. That's easier said than done. I just I just want someone to talk too. I feel so fucking alone right now it's driving me insane. Absolutely insane. Why am I such a fuck up? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Well fuck everyone, I don't care anymore about anything. Caring doesn't get me anywhere. So screw that.