I am mad today and sick and sensitive and depressed and pissed and happy and moody and well just all the way around going insane. I seen Keith again today. Not like it matters, it doesn't, not really. He has a girlfriend. Some tall chick who works at the campus bookstore. Plus, my good friend has a sorta crushy thing for him. So you see how it doesn't matter. I think my new medication for my 'depression' problem is having some weird effects on me. I've been a little sadder lately. And a whole lot angrier. I think I am going to lose my frienship. I think I am losing my good friend. This makes me sad. And pissed. And sad. To be normal would be nice. But I'm not normal so skrew that. My happiness matters, well whenever I find it, it will matter. I am just in a real funk today. I can't seem to get out of it. On and on it goes. Like water running down a drain pipe. I'm done for now. ~~~~~~~~~~~ faint whispers draw me near no time for regret no space for cheer i dream of days so close i dream of nights so far moon light on my face one shining lonely star if only i were perfect if only i were near far from happiness so horribly close to fear ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Life is easy in the movies. It gets messy here. I am like my poems. My poems are me. Dark, gloomy, dreaming, and happy. Chow for now.