okay. so i was a bit out of line with sarah. i suppose. i still feel i was a bit right in my accusations. but. but. live and let be. i cant let our friendship go over my angry feelings. im an asshole. plain and simple. and. after realizing how. ridiculous it was. i tried to make it better. because. i do go up and down and up and down. and. sarah will have to realize that. i am not stable. not by far. not at all. and. i did apologize. and. i do mean it. because. it isnt her fault im new here. and. lonely so much. not really i guess. i mean she did have a life before i came. she has grown. and changed. and that isnt a bad thing. and im most likely in a better mood because i got to spend some money today. and it felt good. and i feel better. but. still. i cant let it all get so crazy all of the time. have to maintain.