i wrote some stuff. a moment or two. ago. and george likes to know. everything. there is to know. but. still knows nothing. important. i miss the moments i had with joe and aimee. regardless of how it all ended. up. ended. done. i miss those moments the most. because i wasnt required to think. nod. and agree. laugh. and agree. and. i know it can never again be. well it could. but. it wont. because. all things come to an end. whether we like it or not. .................................... today was a smooth day. filled with nothing. important. nothing that will stick to me. nothing fulfilling. or unfulfilling. just is. just was. i hope tomorrow goes by quickly. but. it usually doesnt. ..................................... speaking to sarah is awkward. i havent tried to speak to danielle for some time now. but. why should i. she is no different then the rest. no matter how hard i try to see her that way. she is what she is. a creature of ill born habit. and ill fated need. i had a dream that angel kept calling me. help me. she said. help me. and. i kept putting her off as spoiled. and bratty. and. maybe i was wrong in my assumption. maybe. she does need something. but. what now can i possibly do. im too far away to help. and too distant too care. really. then again. it doesnt matter. ---------------------- i feel blank tonight. unusually blank. unnaturally blank. empty in the mind. empty in the heart. empty in the soul. empty in all parts. ----------------- im never sure where to begin. im never sure where it should end. ----------------- ive seemed to have lost something.