i am sick of my bullshit. i am tired of being numb. i am sick of having no one. i am tired of regret. i am sick of being. dicked.over.for.no.reason. i am tired of being. this.me. i am sick of thinking about every. mistake. i am tired of missing my mother. i am sick from not having my mother. i am tired of being a fuckup. i am sick of thoughts. in the night. when i try with. all my might. it all jumps and moves. with a subtly. thats frightening. and i know all of your fears. and dreams. and schemes. but. you know nothing of me. because. i am only seen. as you want to see. and thats fine by me. shadows.moving.along.my.wall. time.winding.down.the.hall. slow.dreams.against.the.stone. all.you.are.is.all.alone. . cinco de mayo. .