I don't know what I expected. I guess I could wish all I want, but nothing will come of it. I wrote a small letter to K. Now I just have to figure out how to get it to him. Maybe I'll just wait until Saturday Morning to drop it off. That might work. Maybe I should just forget about it. SEB probably won't want to go out tonight. I know her and I know she loves to make a production of everything. I wish I wasn't on campus at all. I'll spend most of my time here trying to find P. I know it's a lost cause. A useless endeavor. Everything I do is highly over rated and stupid. I wish I hadn't met him at all. I wish he hadn't spoken to me at all. It'll be fine after I give up hoping. I won't hope for long. It's dwindling already. These things happen. It sucks. But this is the way my life is. I can't have everything or partially anything I want. I want him bad. But nothing will come of it. Nothing. I should be used to this by now. I got my hopes up too soon. It's ridiculous that I should feel this way over some stupid guy I don't really have anything in commong with anyways. He's not my type. I don't want him anymore. I'm done with all that. Counterproductive behavior is all this is. Repetitive and stupid. I think I'll let go now. I'll be fine. I am done for now.