[woo] today i get to stand up in front of the class and share my lack of knowledge about the Korean War with them. i hate this stuff. group work. having to talk in front of a class. it makes me nervous and ill. my stomach is already tossing. turning. i wish i could just not do it. but than what. i have to. i guess. i just won't like it. but there's a light at the end. no class friday. friday the 13th one of my favorites. i'm all about horror. and misplaced superstitions. i enjoy a good 13th every now and than. i wish this was over already. this next class. i wish it was gone and past. i won't take too long. because i can't. i have not much to say. or speak of. or tell. i hope this goes easy on my nerves. i need to maintain. and calm down. level out and feel it all slide by. i'll be fine. i know. but it's the waiting that gets me. as usual. as always. today will consist of nothing after this. i will have no more homework to do now. no more studying to cram in one hour. no more worrying. no more waiting. i just wish i wasn't such the nervous type. the crazy type. i'm shaky now. and will get worse the closer it comes. i will maintain though. calmness is me. i am calmness. even my entry is nervous and scattered. about like garbage. i've decided i will be an artist. a famous one if i choose. i think i'll start soon. i need paint. canvas. and other things. i guess. if writing doesn't work, why not try a new medium? why not. why. who knows. i'm bored and now my stomach's doing somersaults. around and around. waiting. dfn.